Business vs. Busyness

Pots and pans on the stove, in the sink. Shreds of paper on the floor. Stacks of mail precarious upon the table. Paint residue on my arm and between my fingers. Doors are locked. Lights off. And my car–with baked on remains of many suicidal bugs across the windshield– speeds off into the night again.

Keeping My Promise

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When I was 14 years old, I told my dad I wanted to be a writer. I could feel it in my bones. I knew writing was what gave my life its most profound meaning. I could taste it.  “I think I want to be a writer,” my young, tender self announced. “I think I […]

Maybe Not

“No” is a piece of me  sheltered behind  my shrine of                   you. Like a rabbit  hidden  in the desert shrub,  tiny ears  pricked up  to catch any sound of your retreat.   “Yes” is my                plastered-on  smile.  My lifeless phone in my hand, awaiting your                 attention.  My life on hold–an umbrella shut up tight. Straining […]

Relaunch! New Obedience Cover

The Guild is my seductive mistress and most demanding task-master. It has, for years, been the primary focus of my writing life. And while I’m mixing metaphors, let me also say: the Guild is my baby. I have held it close and nurtured it since its inception, and would probably continue that way if not […]

The Return

I have returned. I know, I was AWOL all year. Here are the highlights: 1-I had to face a devastating and painful grief. 2-I had to increase my weekly therapy sessions from 1-2 (or sometimes 3) 3-I had the best summer of my life. 4-I had the worst year of my life. 5-I fell in […]

Nervous Complaints

I did it: I released my book to the world. And now… I’m nervous.​ Thirty-five units have sold. Now, to be fair, four of those were me, because I needed several paperback copies, plus the Kindle copy. But even if I take myself out of the total, there are thirty-one people in the world who […]

Delta India Delta

He views the worldfrom behind my eyes, reaching,wondering, calculating. As calculating as Icould ever be.I fade.I whisper, “See me!” I runthrough the stacks, lookingat piled volumes of the memories,                          knowledge that already belongsto me. He pursues me.I trot throughthe stacks, looking overmy shoulder.Wondering […]

Leader Visits

I walked through the open door of my house, confused for a moment that is was open instead of tightly shut and locked as it should have been. My dog was quiet, though, so I assumed my roommate must be home; if it was a stranger, Daisy would be going crazy! Except, I had the […]

Releasing The Guild: Obedience

Emma is a quiet character in my head. She has been living here since 2011, quietly waiting for her series to be released to the world. Leader, on the other hand, has never given me a moment’s rest. He took up residence before Emma did, and has never been quiet, polite, or patient. Every time […]